Saturday, August 24, 2013

Dreaming of Linda lovelace..

"delete the people that make you feel bad about yourself from your life, unfollow them, delete their numbers, erase their texts, find happier people, pet a dog, watch a silly movie, forget about them, you’re better off"
 It's 4:30 am and I can't sleep... I regret drinking that energy drink so much! Anyway, tonight I saw this and I just felt like writing because there's nothing else to do. I've already spent an hour looking at screen caps/pictures of the movie "lovelace". I want to see that movie sooo bad...anyway, I really wish I can do all of that! Just delete people! It's not that easy though. I'm too nice I think... Feeling annoyed by people is such a waste of energy its just not worth it. I don't even care if what I get annoyed by may be stupid or small to someone else.. The fact that I feel that way makes me upset at myself because I think to myself.. Then why am I following or still their friends?? (this is not about one specific person its just about the way i feel)I understand that everyone changes and I may have changed too! But I've been too  nice to people that have been jerks in the past! Sometimes relationships and friendships don't work out and it just doesn't feel the same anymore. Or one might feel differently about the person that they have become. I'm fine and happy with who I have in my life even If i don't have a huge group of friends! I probably can go on for hours about this but I feel better letting that out now! If anyone read this I'm sorry for probably not making any sense.. 
 P.s. (if u talk to me in "real life"lol please don't ask me about this! I just wanna write my feelings)


  1. I totally get what you're saying. In my situation it's more like I have friends I've become pretty close with but now I realize we are too different to keep going, meeting this often & being this close, it kind of just doesn't work anymore, but we are TOO close to not be friends??? It's complicated... :/ I wish I could be more honest with people & tell them what I truly think & feel, but I feel like noone can handle the truth...

    1. aww thanks! I felt like what I was saying was confusing.. But yes I am kind of in your situation except Ive been friends with them for a while now and sadly people change. In my case it just doesn't feel right anymore when we hang out! I wish I can be more honest too! I think if you hang out less and less they kind of get the picture.. I understand what you mean when you say you feel that they cant handle the truth! I feel the exact same way!It's hard to figure out what I should do. thank you!!<33333